Don’t be afraid to let go

I have never been good at letting go. Everyone has things they can’t seem to let go of. It may be holding a grudge of someone who wronged you in the past, a relationship that you no longer have, or even a version of ourselves we aren’t ready to part ways with yet. Things that are so deeply embedded into us, we have trouble finding ways to release them when they are no longer serving us.

When someone hurts me, I never forget. When someone breaks my trust, I have trouble trusting them again. When I make up my mind about things, I stand by them. I know that this is a terrible way to look at things. I know it is an indicator of how stubborn I can be. But this is also a side of myself I ironically want to let go of.

In the last few years I have realized that there have been things in my life that are no longer serving me. Things that have been a part of my identity, part of my heart, part of my day to day life. And then one day, they aren’t anymore. 

The problem is that with everything changing, I am not sure who am I without them.

The fear of letting go, to find out who I am without these things, that have been so prevalent in my life, is keeping me from finding this new version of myself.

A version of myself I am both excited and scared to meet.

It’s heavy, these things that we can’t get out of our heads. It weighs on us. We are weirdly dependent on them, but they are also dependent on us. They thrive off our fear, they know we need them. They know we are struggling to let go. But what they don’t know is that we are stronger than them. It is time. It is time for me become the version of myself that these things are keeping me away from them.

I am letting go of my grudges of those who have wronged or hurt me.

I forgive you.

I am letting go of the pain from the hardships I have faced in my life.

I am a better person than my past.

I am letting go of my fears, fear I won’t succeed, fear of being alone, and fear of the unknown.
You will no longer in control of me.

I am letting go of the version of myself that I have grown out of. 

It has made me into who I am today, 

but I no longer am that person anymore.

Thank you very much for bringing me to where I am now.

I have always resonated with symbolism in life. So I wrote these things down, taped it to a deep grave that I've dug , and let it go. Luckily I have a best friend / close friends who is amazing enough to do this with me. But now they are gone.The weight has been lifted. I am taking a breath of fresh air. These things are no longer clouding me from finding myself. 

I am already seeing her clearer than ever.

Don’t be afraid to let go. 

Your truest self is waiting for you.

Acceptance is all you need.